| High Five. |
[Mar. 12th, 2007|06:13 pm] |
I am pretty freaking excited. I may be moving out much, much, much earlier than I had thought.
I am not exactly sure when, but I have an idea of where.
This is THE most exciting thing ever.
Also, everything is so much better now.
My birthday is in 3 months.
I also made Nick's daughter very, very, very happy today when she was feeling incredibly down. She's so cute
My best friend's little boy is the cutest thing in the entire world. We will be baby sitting a whole lot.
peace yo. |
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| I am a funny biotch |
[Mar. 1st, 2007|01:40 pm] |
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1) I am still making myself laugh about the whole picture message thing that Nick's ex sent him. It makes me laugh even more how she still believes he wants anything with her. Even harder how she believes I stole him away from her. He didn't even want to visit her back in July, but stupid me.... I made him.
2) I have a 4.0 right now, and intend to keep it that way.
3) I believe I figured out what the hell I want to do with my life.
4) My check will be coming soon. That means...new bed, new clothes, and taking the long trip to Washington to visit Michelle. By the way... Michelle and Frank rule my life.
5) Apartment within the next couple of months. I love Buffalo.
6) Drinking beer and hanging out with Fred tonight. That will be tons-o-fun.
7) I love sex. |
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[Jan. 11th, 2007|10:17 pm] |
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it's nice to feel useful. I'm officially in school now. It's paid for.. My books are ordered.... and I have a schedule. I feel so relieved. I love it. Now how t maintain both jobs and make enough money to have an apartment with my honey. and visit Michelle. Wow. I have a lot of work to do. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2007|09:01 pm] |
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so everything has been so amazing lately. Everything. I still do not enjoy my serving job, but my second and the famous Jim's Steakout is serving its purpose. Saving money has never been so easy for me. I already in the last two weeks managed to save $400. I can't wait to get my place. In other new.... Nick, his family and myself all went to a Sabres game and had a blast. It was so great. We won. Of course. well I must leave now. Going to drink and have a grand time. Enjoy. |
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[Aug. 24th, 2006|08:37 am] |
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I am at the Aroma... I smell like coffee and just want to get the fuck out of here. I am so tired. Two jobs is a whole lot of fucking work and I am handling it better than I thought I would. I do not get much sleep though. opening is a pain in my ass. these people suck at life. I made $20 in less than an hour though. i'm just going to leave by 10. Today's a little rough. I love my new job. What a crazy greek I work for. he's cool though. I'm making a decent amount of money working there. everyone is super nice too. I heart it!
I feel like he's over me and never really loved me because if he did ... he wouldn't be taking it so goddamn well. I was the one that decided all of this back in April. I thought we were going to be ok....i was wrong. I just don't want anyone he ends up with to take away the importance I had in his life. that is what is breaking my heart the most. whatever. you know I have learned something over these past couple weeks. I am fucking fantastic and that's all that matters. I am sick of being down on myself... i'm not going to be anymore. I can't. i'm better than that.
Enough about that. I am making so much money It is making me happy. I can get my car fixed... hopefully move out by next year and be on my own. I want to be completly independent. I want to be away from everything that causes stress in my life and hang out with my friends. I miss my friends so much. I miss Nicole. she doesn't even bother with me. It's like i'm not even here to her. I was forever though. I think she forgot about that. I miss Mr. West. he is the jam. we have to hang out. yes Michael West you rock my socks. Adam. I miss the summer of 03. After Fred would go to sleep, Jake would pass out on the floor.... and Adam would beg me to go to bed 5 million times... Adam and I would just stay up and talk for hours. Sometimes walk to Sunoco or the Olympic. This morning on my way to work I heard Justin Timberlake's "I wanna rock your body" and all i could think of was Darien Lake in 03.. the day Fred and I started to date. I miss it so much. it will never be that way again. Life must go on.
anyways back to work. I have to love life. I'm sick of being a depressed piece of shit. things will get better. I know it. Thak you to anyone who is helping me realize how awesome I am. |
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[Jul. 26th, 2006|02:55 pm] |
My back hurts...... I hate financial aid, i'm drinking a beer and I feel incredibly fat today. oh well. Tomorrow will be better. oh yes it will.... Friday Fred and I and hopefully... maybe.... Mike and Ryan can come laong as well... I am going to Canada for the first time since i turned 19.... I'm not sure how fantastic it will be, but it will be nice not having to worry about anyone carding. i am legal somewhere. excited.
I have come to the conclusion that something needs to be done with my hair. I still wnat to keep it blonde.........do any suggestions. holla back yo.
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[Apr. 26th, 2006|01:26 am] |
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well I haven't updated in quite a while so I guess now is the time since I have some bitching to do. My life has bee out of control lately and I don't know what to do. the whole thing with me and Fred is getting a lot clearer. I discussed it with him for a long time and we sorted out everything. I am so glad we can talk about these things.I even got the balls to tell him about something that has been really on my mind lately, the person I "have a crush on". He even brought up the whole thing with him dating another person in this time and I think that would be a good idea for him. I don't know when it will happen but we are already bonding a greater friendship because of all this believe it or not. I just can't believe he is ok with some of the things I told him. It's cool that we may have a great friendship during this time and not have any hard feeling for anything the other person does. I love him and I am glad we are doing this for the both of us.
Well on a diffrent note I cannot wait to start school it will be cool not only because I am getting a degree, but because I am doing something with my life that benifits other people.
My mother and I have been getting a long pretty well.
I love Alkaline Trio! Matt Skiba makes me moist.
my brother is super crazy when it comes to their shows. He's a cool dude
Fred and I are going to the Olympic with Boxx and Tracy. -peace- |
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[Aug. 18th, 2005|11:30 pm] |
WHERE THE FUCK IS ZOMBIE THE CAT. THAT MOTHER FUCKER SCRATCHED ME UP ALL DAY LONG A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO AND CAN'T EVEN UPDATE ABOUT THAT!!! WTF. I'M UPSET AND HIS TWO BASTARD OWNERS BETTER MAKE HIM UPDATE SOON (when the internet is working) SO I CAN HEAR ABOUT HIS LIFELONG BATTLE WITH EVERYTHING!!!!!!!
(kitty meow)
p.s. I love Fred!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|08:52 am] |
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I have felt like complete shit lately. I haven't eaten much at all. I've had seriously bad headaches everyday and my stupid eye is infected again. I haven't gotten sick in a while so I guess i'm due for the flu sometime in the near future. I always get it every other year. it sucks. hopefully I don't. I have to work soon so that's all. |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2005|07:42 am] |
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yeah so this week my major goal other than getting that stupid pin online to finish financial aid and go take my enterence exam thingy is to clean my goddamn room. It is semi-clean but I want to clear everything I have out of there so I can finally paint it beforethe summer ends I need to stop slacking on all of that. ughk. my ca is fixed though. it need a new radiator pipe because the other one split and it pissed anti-freeze. but it's all good now. yay. I am excited about college and I hope that everyday I do not want to hate going there everyday like high school ok i have to go to fed ex now because my mother is too damn lazy to go for herself ok bye |
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| life sucks sometimes. |
[Aug. 1st, 2005|09:31 pm] |
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yeah shitty day. so I started off with my braces not being taken off until September and my father didn't pay the whole $175 that he owes. Me and Fred are going to pay it. so when I was work my car decided to piss all over the parking lot with anti-freeze. so my car is at Reid's ice cream place on elmwood because it over heated even after i poured more into my car. Well yeah and to top it, I have only about $2.00 in the bank. I don't even know how the hell that happened. it sucks. congrats for Boxx and Mike getting promoted. you guys deserve it. Damn Global Warming. the weather sucks. |
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[Jul. 31st, 2005|12:30 am] |
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I love my boyfriend very very much. just thought I'd say that. good night. |
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[Jul. 28th, 2005|09:47 pm] |
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Today was a crazy day. I woke up and went to the bank for Fred to deposit his check, then I went to the Olive Garden which totally kicked ass!!!!! I love chicken Alfredo. and garlic bread. and salad. and Johnny Puma(Scott). work was pretty awesome. I have a smooth day when Pete is in a good mood. He was making good money today. it was mad busy. then he left and never came back. Tom Hedges is trying to get me out of Pete's. he says I am too happy of a person to work around Pete because he brings people down cus he's an asshole. Then on deliveries I saw two of the people who I were in love with. I saw Kyle Taber. ew. then I saw Tony which gave me a really weird feeling which I still feel right now. When I saw him my stomach kinda dropped and I think I might have said "ughk". and I've been feeling weird since. seeing ur ex's suck. but Fred has been putting me in a better mood so that's all good. I have to go watch Smackdown so peace. DON'T SHARE YOUR iPOD, YOU'LL GET AIDS!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Jul. 19th, 2005|02:41 pm] |
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SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELF
+ Known as: Holly
+ Lives in: buffalo ny
+ First breath: 6/8/87
+ Hair color: natural:dirty blonde/light brown Now:bleach blonde
+ Eye color: blueish, greenish, hazel, greyish???
SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? heck no
+ Been Cheated on? nope
+ Fallen off the bed? once or twice
+ broken someone`s heart? i'm not sure
+ Had your heart broken? yeah
+ Had a dream come true? yes.
+ Done something you regret? a few but i don't dwell on them
SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? a tan tank top with jean capri's and my checkered board slip ons
+ Listening to? mustard plug
+ Located? Fred's living room
+ Chatting with? Trigger
+ Watching? something about a robbery Fred's father is watching
+ Should REALLY be doing? getting my schedule done for college
SECTION 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? yes. i hate plaque and i have braces(only for a couple weeks though!!!)
+Like anybody? i love someone
+ Have any piercing?3 in my ears and i used to have my belly button. but gay...
+ Drive? yes my awesome '93 pontiac sunbird.
+ Smoke? used to but realized damn that was stupid. I wan't to live for a long time.
+ Got a pager? i think in '98 I did
+ Got a cell? yeeeaaah.
SECTION 5 THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ IMed? Adam
+ Talked on the phone? Fred
+ Yelled at? Nicole. kinda felt bad because she was leaving 2 days later. but she annoys me sometimes.
+ Fell in love with? Freddy!!!
SECTION 6 PERSONAL...
+ What comes first in your life? my mommy, brothers and Fred
+ Do you have a crush? no. well does a 23lb cat count??
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? i'm tired
+ How many times have you fallen in love? twice
+ Love your family? yes i do.
+ Love your friends? yes.
SECTION 7 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: i don't even know. the best movie i've seen recently was Willy Wonka
+ Song: i don't fucking know. hot damn.
+ Group: Alkaline trio.....mustard plug, dropkick murphy's, no doubt, guns -n- roses, thrice, thursday, sublime, every time I die, holy shit I don't know...
+ Store: Old Navy
+ Relative: mother, brothers, and grandparents
+ Sport:swimming and gymnastics even though i haven't got to do that in a couple years
+ Fruit: nectarines
+ Candy: Snickers
+ Holiday: halloween,christmas and my birthday
+ Day of the Week: saturdays and sundays
+ Time of day: autumn and summer nights
+ Color: i don't know.
SECTION 8 DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs?yes
+ Like to give kisses? i love them
+ Like to walk in the rain? hell yes. the most intimate kiss I ever had was in the rain.
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black
+ Like to travel? i've never traveled
+ Sleep on your side? side and stomach
+ Have a goldfish? no... 3 big dogs
+ Have stuffed animals? a ton
SECTION 9 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: whatever. I would never do it but if you want go for it.
+ Smoking: it's really dumb, ugly and smelly. i'm glad i stopped.
+ Suicide: what a dumb way to go.
+ Summer:at night time it is great. not too hot and not to cold.
+ Tattoos: i'd like one, but never saw anything i like enought to get on my body forever.
+ Piercings: maybe one or two
+ animal cruelty/fur farms/meat farms: i love meat. but i wouldn't wear furs
SECTION 10 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? tongue
+ Single or taken? taken
+ MTV or BET? neither
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? no
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? silver
+ Chocolate or flowers? chocolate
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? both
+ Stay up late or sleep in? stay up late. i hate sleeping in too much. i feel lazy and like i wasted a whole day.
+ Sun or moon? moon!!!!
+ Left or Right? right
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? one best friend
+ Mustard or ketchup? ketchup,mustard sucks
+ Spring or Fall? both
+ Happy or sad? happy
+ McDonald's or Burger King? no.
+ Lights on or off? dimmed
+ Pepsi or Coke? diet pepsi |
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[Jul. 13th, 2005|11:28 pm] |
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wow my best friend left for the army and for some reason I am not as upset as i thought i would be. mostly because of the fact I know she will come back , but the part that does upset me is I don't know how long it will be. I think to myself that I am going to call her, but she won't be there. Wow, well hopefully she won't be gopne for long.
The school psychologist at Ken East wants me to work there for the summer because he thought I was an awesome student. I mean 40 people failed in my 200 something class so I guess I did all right. I also filled out another application for some other places. Pete blows big penis.
So Darien Lake this weekend. I didn't think it was going to happen for a couple of days because how many people decided they didn't want to go, but Mike, Fred and I will have fun.
My car is fucking fixed!!!!! I can't believe it. I am saving money so far I have $900 and I am going to sell this car later on and buy one from the paper. fuck loans. I have to pay for my own insurance and it is already $154 and if I took out a loan it would go up to $300 something because of fucking collision. cars and money suck.
Wow Fred and my ann. is in 5 days. it has been 2 whole years. Hot Damn! I love him. He's great. yup!!!!! HE'S AWESOME!!!!!!!!! OK so I am going to the pool hall. yay goodbye. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2005|09:08 am] |
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i wish confusion didn't exist. that would make life so much easier to handle. I can graduate tomarrow I am hapy about that. I passed my math class and the exam was so freaking hard I was almost shaking. I was so worried about not graduating and having to go to summer school. Tomarrow will be awesome my grandparents my mom and her boyfriend, Fred, Adam and Nicole are going to my grad. =) happy. alright time to go to the bank and tn for tomarrow. and swim!! |
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[Jun. 18th, 2005|03:07 am] |
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I have noticed that over the years I have always had a crappy family life. and it will never give up biting me in the ass.yeah that is all i have to say about crappy family life. yeah so my two year ann. with fred is coming up soon and i am excied about going to Darien Lake with friends and fred. I bleached my hair for the first time ever and it fucking worked. yes. I also went swimming in really cold weather and cold water but it was fun and very hard nipples came from it. ok bye |
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[May. 27th, 2005|11:43 pm] |
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yeah so I kinda like my job now. and I had a delivery to the fattest woman I have ever seen in my life on Burns deep within the proj. My birthday is in 12 days. Hurray for being legal! |
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| my fucking eye |
[May. 18th, 2005|08:14 am] |
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yeah s right now I am home from school.My mother will probably make me go in, but it hurts like a bitch. Yeah 3 weeks until I am legal. Oh Yay. the only thing that will change is sleeping over Fred's more often. That will be fun. I have almost everything I need due for school done that I had to do to graduate. It is ridiculous how much shit they throw at you in one month.I hate school.
Yesterday I was in Barnes and Nobles with Fred and he wanted to buy a book so we walked up there. I went in the crime section and saw a crime scene book. We look through it and suddenly I got really scared of dying at a young age. I have no idea where it came from because I never really worry or think about that. I then got happy that Fred got me to quit smoking more than a year ago. That's why I love him so goddamn much. That has to be the best thing anyone has ever done for me. It was hard. So yeah where i'm going with this I don't know but I got the biography of Lucielle Ball. It's cool. She was really into drugs and she was a hooker. it's an awesome autobiography.
My eye is swollen and hurts again except it is now the other eye. My eyes are all fucked up I think I might need new eyeliner. I have also decided to stay at Pete's. He talked to me about everything he noticed was pissing me off which was cool. I like real bosses. I want a piercing on my birthday. I don't know what I should get. I have to work 8 hour shifts on school nights. That kinda pisses me of but the money is good. I think I might be able to get my car on the road by next week. hopefully. Ok bye bye. |
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[May. 15th, 2005|01:46 am] |
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Yes a huge May bug and Fred with no pants on and a very tight spiderman shirt on. They are going to kill Brownies. |
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